The title is in reference to the blog, the job, the home, the health…the life. Everything. Everything needs a overhaul – a fresh start.
The blog – I don’t know how people design their blogs and then just leave them alone. Little things always bother me. A color is off or something isn’t centered right. I’m going to ignore the fact that I am one of the worst bloggers ever and never update. We just won’t mention it again. I also won’t make empty promises to try harder because, seriously, I have a full time job and, well, life is really unpredictable and I want to live it.
I actually don’t even know if anyone out there is reading my blog. I hope they are, but even if I am talking to myself then that is ok. Writing is therapeutic really, so I’m good with that. I’m not trying to make blogging my day job. Not that there is anything wrong with that, either! Kudos to people who can make that work…right now that would take more effort than I am willing to put in.
May sound bad, but it’s real.
The job – 
In the beginning of October I got a shock on the job front. In a nutshell we had a meeting and major changes were coming. I had a choice: sit in limbo and wait for something that was ultimately inevitable, or get the heck outta Dodge. Sink or swim…I chose to swim. So after 16 years of working in the same department with many of the same people, I said “goodbye” and took a different position within the company. A totally different position, like, a position I never, in LIFE, thought I’d take.
Everything changed: location, job function, type of work, hours – E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G.
And I don’t do well with change. It has been an adjustment to say the least. It’s not easy to go from being a seasoned person to a newbie who is just learning the job. It’s also really difficult to forget what you know to make room for new policies and new ways of doing things.
The training was long and so.much.to.learn but that part is over and we are in our department now. We’ve been there for 3 weeks and every day gets a little easier. I’m adjusting…slowly, but surely.
I miss my old department and work family though…every single day. 
The home - I am making a conscious effort to keep up with housework. I absolutely HATE doing housework. But we need to make some changes in that area. My kitchen is the pit of despair right now (per the usual) but the other rooms are fairly clean. It’s a start. I have some plans for things when spring comes and it gets a bit warmer out. We had a garage sale a couple years ago and need to clear the stuff that didn’t sell out of the garage and donated. We also have some furniture out there that I’d like to bring in here to put in the dining room and the bedroom.
We’re like borderline hoarders, really, and we need to get our acts together. Period.
The health – No worries…all is well. I just need to eat better and get everything under control there as well. I did well for a long time and then went back to many of my old habits. It’s so easy to fall off the wagon and go back to things that comfort you. Especially in stressful situations…which is basically been my life for a while now, but I’m working it out. I’ve been trying to bring my lunch and get off the pop lately. Even diet pop, I just need to stop drinking the stuff. So we’ve been trying to save money by making dinners at home and I’ve been bringing my lunch for the past couple weeks and plan on continuing to do so more often than not. And if, for some reason, I do buy my lunch, I would like to make more healthy choices.
The life – Seems as though Change is my word for 2013. I hate it, I really do. I feel that strongly about change. I am resistant towards it and it stresses me out. I want comfortable, I like comfortable…well that’s not always good for you.
So Change it is, I guess. I will learn to like it…life will beat that into me. lol By the time I am 40 yrs old (2014 btw!) I will be BFFs with change. Ha…yeah, I don’t believe it either. But…what do they say? “The only constant in life is change.” Yep…time to learn it, embrace it, love it.
I always try to pick a relative photo from Flickr that corresponds with whatever I am writing about. I picked that beautiful rainbow over the Renaissance Center in Detroit because I was thinking about another saying by Dolly Parton,
“The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain.”
Ain’t that the truth? And I’m getting there…it’s been pouring for a while, but it’s starting to clear up a little. I may even go out and play in the puddles for a while.
~Heidi
